Frustration Turned to Relief

I'm sorry that I still have a manage to finish the entire story of the visit from the Germans. It is going to have to wait a little bit longer because I have a more important update from today.

I was supposed to have an appointment with my new caseworker this morning. At 9:30 this morning. Getting up for it was, of course, a struggle. DH told me his alarm clock would ring at 4:15 and he'd be getting up. I woke up at 7:20 and he was still in bed. I guess we were lucky that I woke up, because otherwise we would've run out of time. I woke him up and headed to the bathroom. I came back to do my stretches before taking a shower and of course fell asleep. He woke me up a little while later and I got moving.

He took care of the girls and made breakfast for both of us. I took a shower because usually showers help me wake up. I was still half asleep when I got out of the shower. But I managed eat breakfast and drink some of my tea.

Just about when it was time to start getting moving and hit the road, the phone rang. DH answered because we expected to be his friend who was supposed to come later and help him work on concrete. Instead it was my previous caseworker that we only ever talked to once. Apparently my new caseworker was sick and he was calling to cancel the meeting.

Before I managed to get too upset about that, he came up with some good news. He'd taken a look at my file before calling and was going to take responsibility for my case. Instead of rescheduling the meeting, he said that he would just take care of it with me on the phone. So I didn't have to drag myself in there with all my pain. Was such a relief that someone was acknowledging my pain. Then he said that he was going to just my function description to say that I had no possibility of returning to the workforce and send it in for pension evaluation. He says he's going to put a lot of weight on the fact that my doctor says my condition is stationary. I asked him about the problem with the one idiot that evaluated my problems to be psychological and that they could be repaired with a few years of therapy. He said that it shouldn't matter whether my problems were psychological or physical because in any case, I was unable to work. So instead of us continue to speculate what might need to be done he sent it in for evaluation and they can decide if the need be to see a rheumatologist again.

He also said I should be getting a copy of the paperwork tomorrow or the day after. So DH and I are so relieved. It is ridiculous, that is taken this long for someone to see it.

So after I got off the phone with him, DH calls his friend to tell him to come sooner. Then DH got ready to go pick up more cement in town. I took the girls and went to bed.

Shawnee stayed with me for about an hour, but she didn't settle down well. When she woke me up running off at the end of that hour, I put her in her crate. Then I went back to sleep with Molly. DH checked on me a few times, but I didn't get up until after noon.

Now he and his friend are hard at work on the concrete. I made them coffee and got some bread and stuff ready for them for lunch a little bit ago. I've also done most of the dishes.

However, I am still really really tired. It isn't that surprising, because with all the pain that I'm in my body gets really worn out. I also haven't been sleeping well for days because of hurting so much. The nerves about the meeting definitely weren't helping for the past few days. I am hoping things will settle down now, and especially that my case will soon be resolved.

Having me get onto the disability pension would be such a relief for both of us. I would have a lot more freedom than I have now, for example, I could go on vacation. It would also give us some idea of our financial situation and things could finally stabilize that way. It's a lot easier to make decisions when you know what you're going to be earning tomorrow.